I've been the caregiver in my family for the last forty odd years. I've never been asked; it was simply expected because of my medical knowledge, and passed along to me because I never refused to help someone in trouble. For the most part it's not a problem; I've never had difficulty setting aside my feelings to deal with the injured and sick. I've nursed my guy through three surgeries and one devastating accident before this latest one, and I expect I'll keep doing that as long as I'm able for the rest of my life.
No one understands how incredibly stressful caregiving is unless they've done it, especially when it involves one's partner. For me this time it's been especially difficult, given the lack of help, my increasing limitations and my patient's anger and impatience over his own condition. I meditate every day, sometimes twice a day, to manage my stress. I do the best I can. That's all I can do.
This situation is also why I need some happiness right now, so my next project is going to be something that makes me happy: a Tradewinds Lap Blanket out of Premier Puzzle yarn in the colorway Marbles.
Making hexagons has become super fun for me, and while I'm waiting on the rest of the yarn for my other blankets to arrive I thought I'd use yarn from my stash to make a lap blanket just for me. I have a lot of this colorway already and I need to buy more, really, because it makes me so happy. I have no idea why, it just does.
Last night after I finished a quilting project I crocheted for a little bit, just to do something that gave me pleasure, and it really helped me a lot. Here are the first two hexes I made. This colorway is going to look fabulous in this project.
Tonight I got eight more hexes out of that first skein with only 24" of yarn leftover. I have four more skeins of Puzzle in this colorway, so I'll keep going until I use it all up, and then assemble the hexes into the lap blanket.
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